No, I haven't discovered a cure for cancer, sorry.
But I do know the best cure for the state I've been in for the past few days, ever since Dr. Lee told me in a phone call on Tuesday that my cancer is progressing pretty much everywhere. At least, this is the best cure for me: And it is to TAKE ACTION.
As I wrote yesterday, Dr. Lee's staff refused to get me in to see him so that I could get answers to my questions about the four tumors in my spine that are moving toward (or possibly pressing on) my spinal cord (you know, where all the nerves are). I also needed more info about the tumor in my sacrum that is causing the numbness and tingling down my left leg, and I wanted to tell him that I wanted to move ahead with all possible speed on getting into the T-DM1 trial in Highland, California.
Does anyone seriously think I could wait A WEEK to get answers to these questions?
I was lying in bed wondering if I was going to wake up and find myself paralyzed from one of the mets in my spine ... not a prescription for a good night's rest.
So, this is what I've done so far:
Yesterday, my friend Laurie drove me up to Via Radiology to pick up the copies of my scans on disc to take to Dr. Eulau, my radiation oncologist. I had talked to Dr. E on the phone this week and we had also e-mailed a couple of times, and he said he needed the actual scans before he made any recommendations (of course). He said I should bring them to his office and they would work me in to talk to him.
So we showed up at Dr. E's office at 2, an hour before I was due for my radiation therapy appt. (which is under Dr. E's care) across the street.
Fortunately for me, his 2 o'clock patient had canceled, so he had plenty of time to talk. First, he took some time to study the scans, and then he called me in.
The bad news: Of all the tumors that are larger (lungs, lymph nodes, spine, sacrum, and various other spots in the bone), he was most concerned about the one in my sacrum, which is 7 cm long. That is the largest tumor I have ever had. The one that broke my upper right arm way back when my cancer first metastasized was "only" 5 cm, and I thought that was huge at the time.
We discussed, but did not make a final decision, about the best way to treat this one: conventional radiation, cyberknife, or with systemic treatment in the clinical trial (T-DM1).
The other spot he was most concerned about is one of the tumors in my spine, at T-9, I believe. On the MRI I could see that the tumor is bulging out of the bone and appears to be touching the spinal cord. Dr. E says it isn't putting pressure on the spinal cord yet, or I would know it, but it is very very close.
That one we can't radiate, because the area has already been treated with conventional radiation. So the options are cyberknife or the systemic treatment (or both, actually, cyberknife first, then the trial). Dr. Eulau is going to discuss the options for both of these trouble spots with my other two doctors, Dr. Doug Lee (Dr. Lee the First) and Dr. Brian Lee (Dr. Lee the Second, or Cyberknife Guy).
Dr. Eulau agrees on my choice of T-DM1 as my next treatment, and he made a call to Tricia, the point person on the trial in Highland, because I couldn't move ahead on making plans to go there until one of my doctors had confirmed to them that my cancer has indeed progressed on my most recent treatment regimen (THAT's one of the things I wanted Dr. Lee to do for me on Wednesday ...)
I also asked him if Dr. Eulau's office could request all my treatment records for me, because I am going to need to take those to California with me, and he said they could do that.
Then we went across the street to the Gowned Waiting Room, and I got my zap.
On the way home, Laurie suggested a milkshake, and we picked up shakes at Kidd Valley (they have the best--McDonald's shakes don't begin to compare--not that I ever eat at McD's) and then I came home and collapsed on the couch. But my day wasn't done--I also had a long e-mail from Tricia, answering some questions I had e-mailed to her the day before, and then I called her and we talked for a while.
By the end of the phone call, I had a tentative appt. to be seen by one of the study doctors in Highland on July 29.
Then I had to check with Monica, who has agreed to fly with me, and Megan, a friend in the L.A. area who had already offered me a place to stay, to see if those dates would work.
They do, and I now have a firm appt. with Dr. Ibrahim on July 29.
Next task: To find free airline flights. I have been told that the American Cancer Society will pay for one free flight for a cancer patient and companion to travel for medical treatment, but I sure can't find that info online. If anyone has the contact info for this program, please e-mail it to me ASAP.
Second task: To gather up ALL of my medical records for the past 12 years, which are at three different cancer centers. This is going to be fun!
But I've already asked for my records from Swedish, I'm going to go in and get the records from Dr. Lee's clinic on Tuesday, and then I will tackle the U of Washington/SCCA--these are the folks who, last time I requested a complete copy of my medical records, which were three binders thick, gave me only about one sixth of the total pages and they were out of order and pages were missing. They also didn't contain the info I needed.
That will not happen this time, if I have to stand over them and mark every page.
Friday
Plans for today? To take it easy. I have a necklace to mail and a couple of things to pick up at the grocery store. I'll do these errands on my way to treatment, and yes, I have a ride. My friend Linda, mother of Megan (the college student), is driving me.
@ Jeanne Sather 2010.